对的人,错的时间...

5月14日...

当你开始对某人有感觉了,
但偏偏遇到敌人, 又怕不够敌人厉害...
信心就这样的彻底摧毁 =(

我以为我可以慢慢的培养感情但太迟了,
已经被人捷足先登...

以为找到的新的工作可以开始展开攻势...
太迟了,我真的后知后觉...
实在实在实在实在.....

人身嘛就是那么的神奇...
我真的他妈的不幸... =(


程咬金 =(((

I'm Back!!

I knew no one will use blog again but i suddenly felt like wanna use it!
I want use it as my diary to record my life from now on...

You know what?? I am going interview for tomorrow...but i feel tired to work..
Seriously i envy those people that can enjoy uni life..rushing assignment, housemates, and on and on..

But i just can't stop working, my parents financial is not very good so i had to be a good son to step on this reality life to work... why i am just the only one who need to suffer? I am a good son?? There are too many questions that is no answer for me...

I look back my old post, i don't who am i? is that me? is so funny and failure..
can i make it better? i knew money is important in this world, so i can't stop earning money...
someone sell insurance till rich but i felt i not this kind of person...i tried but i failed...
i still stick to my old skill that is fixing computers, i just knew this skill only...

Went for a Penang trip, knew some new frens, increase relation with old frens..
It was a fun trip but is hard to be a planner. Seriously you need to fullfill every person is a hard task but i tried my best, i need follow the majority to make decision. Maybe is my last trip and i need to get back to work... I enjoyed the trip much by talking craps.. =)

At last, complain and complain doesn't get any benefit...
I just need to face the truth and work in on...

Good luck to myself and if someone really get bf wish her stay happily ever after.. =|

路

叶勇霖你做什么工啦,

考到这样,改天也不是一样....

一分不是分MEH?

像你这样MEH?

这堆话让我无言!!!

给人取笑我成绩差,你们以为我喜欢成绩差啊?

我根本不喜欢读书, 不喜欢的东西学来做么?

以后出去见客户,

难道你拿出课本来看要用什么方法来让他买你的东西?

我又不是要做医生...

又不是要做律师...

就是不喜欢读书啊!!

难道读到大学,

出来一定有工作?

你们确定一定可以做跟你们读到的东西?

还是出来随便找一份工?

我认为读书固然重要但读自己要用的书?

不是更事半工倍吗?

读到你不喜欢的,又辛苦....

其实现在做工只是为我的将来铺路...

我不喜欢人家说我天天只会做工....

而且我重来也不把做工当借口!!!

不要诬赖我的工作!!!

因为那段话!!!

我发誓即使我的成绩不好!!!

我以后的成就一定要比你好!!

无论做什么工我都要做到最好!!!

我要证明成绩差不代表前途一篇黑暗!!!

我要努力...

我一定要出人头地!!!!!!!

我要天天手上有一杯STARBUCKS!!!

吃东西再也不用看价钱!!!

可以随时随地的修理我的车!!!

不要再穿校鞋做运动!!

Just The Way You Are!!

life is just a game for me!!

whatever thing i heard,

i just can smile to face it...

i can do nothing on it...

this is me...

i will try to change

but i still myself...

sorry and thx....

I AM INSANE!!!

YAP YONG LIM

TRUTH IS ALWAYS HURT =(

我只想简简单单 ^^

我一只以来都在欺骗自己,

从来都没放弃过,但我以为我放弃了...

她不要给我任何希望,她怕我失望...

她很善良,但我还是很伤心...

我不知道要如何来描述我的心情...

一个男孩哭是很丑的事...

我只可以忍着眼泪,盼望明天的到来...

为什么我会爱上她?

为什么我放弃不了?

好多好多的为什么...

为什么 为什么 为什么!!!

她在我心目中的地位是多么的高...

而在她心目中我只是个普通朋友...

我不想让她为我难过,我不想打扰她...

看到她快乐,我应该也会开心吧?

我不断的再重复一样的东西....

难道我的生活只有爱情?

有一天,她会跟的相爱的人在一起...

为我只可以在旁边祝福她...

她可以改变我的生活...

跟她出街,我可以变得很开心...

因为一张照片,我的心情可以跌到谷底...

她真的可以改变一切...

因为她,我拒绝了别人..

我不是要责怪她,我不是要赖她...

我只是一个普通朋友...

为什么电影往往都有美好的结局...

但现实生活中从来不会发生...

我很想知道我的未来!!

我有想过在她的记忆里消失...

但我办不到,我知道我这样做是自私了一点...

我这样做可以让我好过一点吗?

我不知道答案,我做事从来不想后果...

可能我写了这篇部落格,会让她尴尬...

但我不知道要向谁倾诉,我不要再打扰任何人...

尤其是她的朋友,她们都会觉得我烦...

我必须承受自己的东西...

责任,我必须承担一切...

我自作自受...

我不知道我要如何发泄!!

我不知道我接下来要如何过...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

i'm back!

i had use to it wif my stupid life...

i not emo...i just feel sometime damn tiring...

start from august many thing will be change..

i will start going to my cousin's shop to learn fixing com!!

feel excited for it...coz i finally can do smth i like!!

FORM 6 isn't the choice i want but i slowly like it...

duno why i feel now form 6 is better than COLLEGE!!!

haha!! college student dun bang my car or burn my house!

my life now just full of study and work work work and work!!

when i saw adidas i will just think abt my work...

suddenly i hope i can go shopping!!

weird leh! i hope i can get some new clothes!!

1 more thing i feel wanna eat bak kut teh hardly!!

MY NEW TARGET!

i wish i can own my car wif my own cash!!

is a nice target...i hope i will hit this target when i finish my STPM or earlier!!!

i am saving money for it!! but i hope can get a better car...

better car with BETTER price...

so just can go for second hand car!!

but i will miss my AH WONG!

or upgrade my AH WONG to SUPER WONG!!!

haha!! JULY 18 a weird morning tat i dreaming here!!

suddenly gt many hope on many things!

maybe my life is bored so i wish gt some TARGET or HOPE for me to do...

STUDY isn't my strong subject!

the LAST 1....

JIANG JIANG JIANG JIANG!!

~~~LOVE~~~

wow...tis word is a meaningful for me...

look back to the past...i did so much thing just for tis word

but i din regret...although at last i own a best fren...

but sometime i will feel sad...ME maybe is an animal tat nid tis word...

i like tis word...but when some1 come to me i start afraid it...

GoD is NAUGHTY!

when some1 put tis word on you...

u sure put tis word on another ppl...

hard to find some1 will put tis word to u when u put tis word on tat ppl....

I'M NOT THE RIGHT PERSON FOR U

tis sentence appear in my life for few times...

although my life is short but i sometime hate tis sentence...

just is an excuse! but i will accept the truth...

but YOU let me know tis word clearly...

you dun wanna hurt me...

happy wif tat sincere talk tat night...

i will be always beside you whenever u needs me...

so so so so so so so

when i said i lose hope in tis word...

i dun reli wanna to say tis word...

i use long time to accept the truth..

coz i reli din imagine u r tis kind of ppl...

SORRY TO YOU...

i know i sometims might some old fashion...

but at last i choose to SUPPORT you wif all ur decision!!!

coz i know you are RASIONAL...

you are yourself!!

you are special !!

the brave girl and tough girl i ever meet!!

u overcome all things to achive wat u like and u wan...

but i just like a tortoise...

THX! you give me a lesson!

as you said - FRENS FOREVER YONG LIM!

haha!!! WOW!!!

PS : To an leng lui grandmother! dun stress yourself and live happily...

dun bother abt those ungentleman guy in ur class...

u always think i'm same group wif them but you are wrong!!

if i wif you, i sure will help you!

dun look down on me!!

CHEER LENG LUI GRANDMOTHER!!

YOU ARE THE BEST!

原来我只是想休息....

今天去看了一场电影,虽然个子小小但有很有志气...
跟我根本没的比,自从他走了以后...我只有努力工作和不断的埋怨罢了...
一点骨气也没有, 人可以被生活打倒,但人可以选择站起来....
我就是一直站不起来,天天觉得工作很累...
所以天天马马虎虎的工作,过的一天就一天....
没想到看到这场戏,还改变我的人生观....
我真的觉得工作很累...整天赶到好像狗一样...

我喜欢坐在戏院里的感觉,抛开一切的烦恼...
我不用再想工作,不用负起家里的负担....
不用再面对上司, 感觉非常轻松...
虽然只是短短的两个小时,但我觉得好像度完假...
而且还要跟想见的人一起去比较好...
我爱上了看电影, 它给了我一个可以释放自己的空间...
里面一片黑暗,只可以投入电影的情节...
把自己当成是主角,感觉身在其中的感觉....

我感到释放了,从来没有感到这么爽....
而且我真的从她的影子走了出来, 我不需要在感觉尴尬...
我就只做回我自己, 可能太久没有好好的休息了...
所以会感到那么的轻松....她的影子真的很长....
接受了残酷的事实,我需要勇敢的站起来...
再颓废下去只会让妈妈担心,
其实我也很希望他回来担回这个家...
我只是18岁,为什么我要担起这个家....

我真的感觉好累好累....
我的肩膀很重,但我知道妈妈比我还要辛苦...
我必须撑强,多么的累也必须撑着....
我是男人, 我其实应该照顾我妈妈...
但我办不到,我真的尽力了...

看了这场戏,我觉得活在戏里多好...
让我感到轻松了...
明天还是要去读书和做工....
我真的很不想去,但我看到妈妈疲倦的躺在那儿睡觉...
我会有想哭的感觉...
妈妈,辛苦了...
我不会让你再担心我....

我喜欢看电影!!!
谢谢两位朋友陪我看电影...