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叶勇霖你做什么工啦,

考到这样,改天也不是一样....

一分不是分MEH?

像你这样MEH?

这堆话让我无言!!!

给人取笑我成绩差,你们以为我喜欢成绩差啊?

我根本不喜欢读书, 不喜欢的东西学来做么?

以后出去见客户,

难道你拿出课本来看要用什么方法来让他买你的东西?

我又不是要做医生...

又不是要做律师...

就是不喜欢读书啊!!

难道读到大学,

出来一定有工作?

你们确定一定可以做跟你们读到的东西?

还是出来随便找一份工?

我认为读书固然重要但读自己要用的书?

不是更事半工倍吗?

读到你不喜欢的,又辛苦....

其实现在做工只是为我的将来铺路...

我不喜欢人家说我天天只会做工....

而且我重来也不把做工当借口!!!

不要诬赖我的工作!!!

因为那段话!!!

我发誓即使我的成绩不好!!!

我以后的成就一定要比你好!!

无论做什么工我都要做到最好!!!

我要证明成绩差不代表前途一篇黑暗!!!

我要努力...

我一定要出人头地!!!!!!!

我要天天手上有一杯STARBUCKS!!!

吃东西再也不用看价钱!!!

可以随时随地的修理我的车!!!

不要再穿校鞋做运动!!

Just The Way You Are!!

life is just a game for me!!

whatever thing i heard,

i just can smile to face it...

i can do nothing on it...

this is me...

i will try to change

but i still myself...

sorry and thx....

I AM INSANE!!!

YAP YONG LIM

TRUTH IS ALWAYS HURT =(

我只想简简单单 ^^

我一只以来都在欺骗自己,

从来都没放弃过,但我以为我放弃了...

她不要给我任何希望,她怕我失望...

她很善良,但我还是很伤心...

我不知道要如何来描述我的心情...

一个男孩哭是很丑的事...

我只可以忍着眼泪,盼望明天的到来...

为什么我会爱上她?

为什么我放弃不了?

好多好多的为什么...

为什么 为什么 为什么!!!

她在我心目中的地位是多么的高...

而在她心目中我只是个普通朋友...

我不想让她为我难过,我不想打扰她...

看到她快乐,我应该也会开心吧?

我不断的再重复一样的东西....

难道我的生活只有爱情?

有一天,她会跟的相爱的人在一起...

为我只可以在旁边祝福她...

她可以改变我的生活...

跟她出街,我可以变得很开心...

因为一张照片,我的心情可以跌到谷底...

她真的可以改变一切...

因为她,我拒绝了别人..

我不是要责怪她,我不是要赖她...

我只是一个普通朋友...

为什么电影往往都有美好的结局...

但现实生活中从来不会发生...

我很想知道我的未来!!

我有想过在她的记忆里消失...

但我办不到,我知道我这样做是自私了一点...

我这样做可以让我好过一点吗?

我不知道答案,我做事从来不想后果...

可能我写了这篇部落格,会让她尴尬...

但我不知道要向谁倾诉,我不要再打扰任何人...

尤其是她的朋友,她们都会觉得我烦...

我必须承受自己的东西...

责任,我必须承担一切...

我自作自受...

我不知道我要如何发泄!!

我不知道我接下来要如何过...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

i'm back!

i had use to it wif my stupid life...

i not emo...i just feel sometime damn tiring...

start from august many thing will be change..

i will start going to my cousin's shop to learn fixing com!!

feel excited for it...coz i finally can do smth i like!!

FORM 6 isn't the choice i want but i slowly like it...

duno why i feel now form 6 is better than COLLEGE!!!

haha!! college student dun bang my car or burn my house!

my life now just full of study and work work work and work!!

when i saw adidas i will just think abt my work...

suddenly i hope i can go shopping!!

weird leh! i hope i can get some new clothes!!

1 more thing i feel wanna eat bak kut teh hardly!!

MY NEW TARGET!

i wish i can own my car wif my own cash!!

is a nice target...i hope i will hit this target when i finish my STPM or earlier!!!

i am saving money for it!! but i hope can get a better car...

better car with BETTER price...

so just can go for second hand car!!

but i will miss my AH WONG!

or upgrade my AH WONG to SUPER WONG!!!

haha!! JULY 18 a weird morning tat i dreaming here!!

suddenly gt many hope on many things!

maybe my life is bored so i wish gt some TARGET or HOPE for me to do...

STUDY isn't my strong subject!

the LAST 1....

JIANG JIANG JIANG JIANG!!

~~~LOVE~~~

wow...tis word is a meaningful for me...

look back to the past...i did so much thing just for tis word

but i din regret...although at last i own a best fren...

but sometime i will feel sad...ME maybe is an animal tat nid tis word...

i like tis word...but when some1 come to me i start afraid it...

GoD is NAUGHTY!

when some1 put tis word on you...

u sure put tis word on another ppl...

hard to find some1 will put tis word to u when u put tis word on tat ppl....

I'M NOT THE RIGHT PERSON FOR U

tis sentence appear in my life for few times...

although my life is short but i sometime hate tis sentence...

just is an excuse! but i will accept the truth...

but YOU let me know tis word clearly...

you dun wanna hurt me...

happy wif tat sincere talk tat night...

i will be always beside you whenever u needs me...

so so so so so so so

when i said i lose hope in tis word...

i dun reli wanna to say tis word...

i use long time to accept the truth..

coz i reli din imagine u r tis kind of ppl...

SORRY TO YOU...

i know i sometims might some old fashion...

but at last i choose to SUPPORT you wif all ur decision!!!

coz i know you are RASIONAL...

you are yourself!!

you are special !!

the brave girl and tough girl i ever meet!!

u overcome all things to achive wat u like and u wan...

but i just like a tortoise...

THX! you give me a lesson!

as you said - FRENS FOREVER YONG LIM!

haha!!! WOW!!!

PS : To an leng lui grandmother! dun stress yourself and live happily...

dun bother abt those ungentleman guy in ur class...

u always think i'm same group wif them but you are wrong!!

if i wif you, i sure will help you!

dun look down on me!!

CHEER LENG LUI GRANDMOTHER!!

YOU ARE THE BEST!

原来我只是想休息....

今天去看了一场电影,虽然个子小小但有很有志气...
跟我根本没的比,自从他走了以后...我只有努力工作和不断的埋怨罢了...
一点骨气也没有, 人可以被生活打倒,但人可以选择站起来....
我就是一直站不起来,天天觉得工作很累...
所以天天马马虎虎的工作,过的一天就一天....
没想到看到这场戏,还改变我的人生观....
我真的觉得工作很累...整天赶到好像狗一样...

我喜欢坐在戏院里的感觉,抛开一切的烦恼...
我不用再想工作,不用负起家里的负担....
不用再面对上司, 感觉非常轻松...
虽然只是短短的两个小时,但我觉得好像度完假...
而且还要跟想见的人一起去比较好...
我爱上了看电影, 它给了我一个可以释放自己的空间...
里面一片黑暗,只可以投入电影的情节...
把自己当成是主角,感觉身在其中的感觉....

我感到释放了,从来没有感到这么爽....
而且我真的从她的影子走了出来, 我不需要在感觉尴尬...
我就只做回我自己, 可能太久没有好好的休息了...
所以会感到那么的轻松....她的影子真的很长....
接受了残酷的事实,我需要勇敢的站起来...
再颓废下去只会让妈妈担心,
其实我也很希望他回来担回这个家...
我只是18岁,为什么我要担起这个家....

我真的感觉好累好累....
我的肩膀很重,但我知道妈妈比我还要辛苦...
我必须撑强,多么的累也必须撑着....
我是男人, 我其实应该照顾我妈妈...
但我办不到,我真的尽力了...

看了这场戏,我觉得活在戏里多好...
让我感到轻松了...
明天还是要去读书和做工....
我真的很不想去,但我看到妈妈疲倦的躺在那儿睡觉...
我会有想哭的感觉...
妈妈,辛苦了...
我不会让你再担心我....

我喜欢看电影!!!
谢谢两位朋友陪我看电影...

I just wan my life simple...

time goes fast, it come till to the mid of june...
i have work for quite a long time, at first i was frustated for working...
but now i try to enjoy my work nicely. i dun think i will stop working...
MONEY is important! without money a family will break...
i duno how to mention it...just hope anything can solve it nicely...
WORK WORK WORK...is my life now...
(eh yong lim go play basketball lo, I HAVE TO WORK SORRY)
(eh go yum cha lo, I WORKING LEH~~)
(wei free mou, i sibeh sien leh... go out da gei or duk bo lo... CANT LAR TMR NID WORK )
(u always work u not sien de a....WHEN U GT 1.8K U WONT FEEL SIEN)
i feeling tired...my life not my life... but i stay cheer ^^
TODAY IS BETTER THAN YESTERDAY

i felt i has changed, but not much... i regret of doing smth on 1 night...
if i din attend or i din just walk away, smth wont happen like tat...
i just feel unhappy on tat time then i just walk away...
maybe i am too tired, so i did such silly thing...
FRENs u all can know easily, but FRENs that tell the truth to YOU are not much...
FRENs tat honest to you,
FRENs tat share secret to you,
FRENs will always say ur fault out...
in tat incident i din feel hu r wrong and hu r correct...
i just hope every1 can forget tat part...
after graduate u all still can be fren is not easy...
some of my form5 fren has gone somewhere else...
we din even contact...
just intercept ur relationship just for a small matter...
although u all willl ignore wat i say in this post...
but i reli hope u all can forget tat thing...
SORRY for doing such silly thing...
朋友有今世,没来世...

从4月1号开始

从4月1号开始,我就走出了她的影子...
这次终于成功了,但我感到有点空虚...
我的生活不断的在重复,我也不知道我工作为了是什么...
可能让我走出后不要再去想,但周围的朋友让我想要找个伴...
我还是尽量控制自己,差点还做错了事...幸好悬崖勒马...
才没伤害到一个好女孩,我竟然把她当成她...
口虽然说心如止水但心一点也不止....

每天一早,睡醒了家里一个人也没有....
自己一个人吃早餐,感到好寂寞...电话摆在旁边希望会香一下...
但知道是不会有人会找我的...我的生活不断的重复...
没有生活目标的重复...心里只有告诉自己,你是为了钱而工作....
觉得有点麻木了,对这个世界一点期待也没有...
好想明天就是末日,这样一来就可以结束我的一生...
或者明天走出门就给车撞死...死就好像睡觉的感觉而已....
我宁愿睡一场好觉也不想没有目的的生活...
所以现在为了PSP而努力工作...
如果死了也没什么大不了,朋友会来大哭一场...
大哭一场后,他们就会慢慢忘记谁是叶勇霖...
可能朋友也不会知道我死了...
只是会奇怪怎么勇霖不见了...好久没见到他...
人生到底为了什么而活?
没有目标的人类犹如一个会移动的死人...
人是为了爱情而活的吗?
我现在的答案是爱情是一个我不喜欢的游戏...
没有伤口的疤痕,
感觉到痛但找不到伤口,

我以为我变了, 我的金口开了...
但我从来也没变过, 我还是我...
我是一个很好的朋友, 但不是一个好的男朋友...
人家说我就想一个树洞,
只是让人家说一些不可以说的事情, 放松一下...
心情低落时, 就会来找一下这个树洞...
发泄一下...

我一直都认为我是一个不重要的人,
人们需要我时, 我会出现...
人们不需要我时,我会消失...
我只是一个树洞...

我是一个死的东西.....

The End

my last decision finalize by going FORM 6 to futher my studies...
although i not willing to but i nid to study... i have think nicely...
i cant blame my parents for cant send me to college... they had their probs...
i just can face the truth... study hard and get scholarship and get any U i wan....

i envy those ppl can choose their college they wanted to in....
and they can change in half way...how rich they are... but i not them...
i just hope can simply in 1 college and study wat i interested...
i cant imagine my look of form 6...white shirt and white pants?
quite funny huh... last time was feeling die also wont go back kb...
but i at last nid to go back.... i was damn damn bu shuang when my parents told me...
is quite unfair la...why everytime something so special occur on me...
i try to independent and work hard to get wat i wanna get...
but sometimes is fate and i nid luck maybe...

sometimes i reli stuborn of 1 thing...
when i wake up...i was too late...i miss many thing...

looking forward to form 6...
CHEER ^^

我很笨...

每年生日都会有不愉快的事发生, 今年也不例外...
反而发生更多事...
那天看完戏前, 跟他们吵到差不多连整条街都可以听到....
看完戏后, 半夜3点多才回家...他竟然坐在等我, 被他臭骂了一顿还中打...
但我一点感觉也没有...你生的,要怎样打都可以...你尽量打吧...打死更好...可以上头条!!!

拿成绩那天, 本来心情还过的去的...因为都自己的成绩会是怎样的...
但听到一些我应该不用相信的东西...心情直接跌到谷里...
朋友们约我去看戏, 我还是得撑着...还可以笑的出来...
就因为一直想着那件事...结果撞车了...幸亏不是很严重....
看完戏后, 我真的忍不住了... 就一个人飞车回家...竟然驾到一个平时驾不到的速度....
但我没回家...去找朋友....朋友一上车...我竟然流下泪...第一次在朋友面前流泪....
又一次3点多回到家... 这次没有人等我...但我没有带钥匙...站在门口等了一小时...
我婆婆起来了,她开门给我进去...我冲了凉但我睡不着...只好对着电脑发呆....

一整夜没有睡, 最后我去找一个人问个清楚....
她应该觉得我很烦,但她最终给了我答案... 我觉得我真的很笨...
是和不是对我一点改变也没有, 我只是接受不了她有另一半了...
我一直也没放弃到...现在还可能失去做朋友的机会...
我真的很对不起她...她应该非常信任我...但我却不信任她....
真的非常非常对不起...你可以不用原谅我...
我会记得这次的教训...对不起...

时间是不会停止的, 你不喜欢我也是改变不了的...
我要学会接受事实, 因为我18岁了...是你这样告诉我的...
你永远是我的朋友...对不起, 我应该相信你...
希望你能在你的事业成功...

Elmo found his long lost brother, EMO

Emo is my fren, he folo me for a long time...

today feel extra emo, duno why...
just feel moody and is raining now...
no mood to do anything...
just wanna sleep for a long long time...

Emo maybe just my only fren, i feel very lonely now...
ppl will ajak me to hang out when near my birthday only...
normal day, just wont bother me...
if not will just nid me to be an obedient driver...
still better than taxi...
if not ask me go out fetch them go cc only...
conclusion also be driver, no difference...

i think i wanna be Elmo better, then i can have a good brother EMO...

Remember Today 27-Feb

i will rmb today tat i owe some1 a lot of thing...
i let her disappointed 2 time....
i swear i will sharpen my skill and i will help her FOC for her whole life...
if not i will be single whole life!! i wanna pay back her...

SORRY..although u dun wan me to say...but i still wanna say...
reli feel very very very sorry to u...
hope u forgive me...

1 Dot Color

every year de CNY like no diff to me, maybe just a long holidays...
my relative all come my house but i went out yum cha in the afternoon...
my house was freaking noisy...full of kids...those kid like wanna robohkan my house...
i chat wif my relatives for 1 hour, after tat we have no topic to chat...
we just sit there and watch tv...adult discussing abt their thing...teenagers just watch tv...
kids was just non stop running around in my house...now i prefer silence...
just a normal day for me..nth diff...

today is the second day, i think i also stay at home whole day i think...
new year must buy new cloth new pants and new bla bla bla...
but i just buy a pair of EXP new shoes...this shoes freaking exp...
guess wat brand is tat?
no ppl know....just NEW BALANCE...haha..
i think i gt some prob...so i bought it...gt some regret abt buying this shoes...
but i edi bought d wat can i do...

i finish my work in LEVI's...now maybe will measure my house land until spm result came out...
wanna go out wif fren but many ppl busying finding their relatives...
haiz...new year aint new year...
hope u get a nice new year...

黑白

i wan confusing i should go for wat course now ?
all of those thing is so F**K...
choose this kena ban by parents, but folo their will i will more hate it..
i duno how to decide...i just hope if i can get a good salary de job and no nid study more good...
1 month gt 30k de salary then no nid any degree...this life is good for me..haha...
but is impossible...many frens around start colleges and many work like me...
but i feel my work is the most relax work compare to others....
although some of them de salary is higher than mine but i feel i work less but get more than the the thing i work....
can u find a job can ply psp dere?
can wan go eat at wat time also can?

so i din regret and nid thx to my cousin for bringing me this good work!!
but my work end at feb 13...but the course i choose start at april...
2 more month i eat grass at home? being a stupid at home?
i prefer work to finish my holidays...but no any job after cny...
i am middle of anything...wat can i do...
wat thing also stuck at middle...
i try to solve it but i make it more complicated...i duno how to handle it anymore...

LOVE...CINTA...爱...
wat is this thing...i think back i like a idiot on this thing...
if world without love...then this world will become wat?
if I din fall in love in any girl? how good am i?
haha...talking nonsense...something u work hard but u cant get de thing...
sometimes come near u sometimes flow away quickly and u cant catch it...
something funny...something serious....something blur...
the result i get is ____

长大了..

times goes fast, is 2010...
i over my new year wif my family in Hong Kong,
but not a nice trip, gt some quarrel among us...
i eat a lot, fat le... now i'm 80kg... wah...
i also duno when i become so fat le...haha...

dun laugh, i know u r laughing...
i am working now at levi's, those worker there are friendly but they like %$^$#^%$^...
they still geng than me, wat also can say.. no any secret...
today i heard a stupid joke...a salesman say wan go rebond his ketiak punya bulu...
then another ppl say he is allergic to water, he always bath wif pasir...
wat kind of stupid joke i also heard dere...
i learn smth dere also...learn how to cut jeans... and many type of cutting of jeans...
not bad also...can take some experience...
but there de food reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli reli mahal!!!

if every meal eat there my salary just cover de pay only... so i bring bread go dere eat...
although sometime i am hungry but i also will tahan till go home and eat...
dun wan waste money...but the job end at feb 13 only...i tot can work till march...
so i finding another job to work during CNY...i dun wan waste CNY de time at home...
instead taking ang pau... i hope i can earn more money... i hope to get an better cpu...
and got more money to use or keep for future...

new year got new year hope...
i hope my pimples will disappear..(wat a lame wish)
i hope my decision in choosing my course will be correct and get scholarship!!
1 more thing...i hope she happy also ^^
long time no see her...i wish her happy always...u will become a successful pharmacist!!
GAMBATE!!