雨

最近不知为什么爱上了雨
总觉得雨好舒服哦
这几天下的雨,觉得好适合我...
我心中的伤与苦...

终与回到班上课了但觉得好无聊哦....
老师上的东西我都不明白,有些在补习学会了
真的觉得去学校真的很无聊除了去见她...
她比赛输了,不知要怎么安慰她,她的朋友劝我别去烦她比较好....
但我真的真的真的好想找她,安慰她...更想打电话给她....
但我还是忍着,心里有开始伤心了...
没用的叶勇霖....

那天,她告诉我无论我等多久都没有机会的...
心里突然有一种不知想怎样的感觉...
如果放弃生活好像迷失了方向...
她已经成了我生活中的一部分...
如果没有她,我可能再也不是我...
那时我会变成怎样我自己也不知道,我爱疯了?
也许吧....
我真的傻了...

还有我开部落格,不是到处宣传我对她的爱...
是让我发泄我感情的地方,不是为了博取任何同情...
也不是为了别人来说,勇霖你的BLOG很感动哦...
我不是乞丐,不需要人施舍...不需要别人同情...
这是我的命...不要来我面前提我的BLOG的东西...
看就看...

PS: 祝38生日快乐...你看你几伟大在我的BLOG出现,和她同级叻...心想事成!!

Grow up...

at this moment i feel i adi grow up ba....
soon i can drive, today i went to take my undang test and i get 47/50...
i din feel any happy,but i just scare fail coz need to pay money and do test again...
first time i will worry abt money...coz my family now just can overcome our 3 meal and daily usage...
no more extra money to waste...i take whole driving license need RM760...
is quite expensive...my mum tell me to choose a cheaper course after my spm...
but she also tell me go for form 6 if can...but i dun wan...
she tell me wif a bad mood....haiz...i still gt brother so i cant waste my family money...

i miss her so much....
i feel she like dun wanna chat wif me or i no topic wif her ba....
now like stranger...wanna chat wif her but she always busying wif her debate thing...
haiz...i so useless...wan kau lui also duno...i so fast wan take driving license coz of her only...
i just wanna be wif her....anything can let me be more cheerful except her??
just 1 message of her i can happy...fren around me all wif their dream girl but y i cant...
i wan gf...i wan some1 can care me...some1 can let me chat wif her...i also wan know more abt her thing but i fail...
FAILURE...

i love u...

我还想她...

突然觉得我又失败了...
我在她心目中真的只是一个普通 朋友,我想成为可以跟她分享她的烦恼的人...
但我永远都不可能是她的人选....
刚看完她的BLOG,发觉我好不了解她....
感觉离她越来越远,我很想跟她一起谈天叻...
我想听她的烦恼,和试下可以帮到她吗...
我还记得她对我说, '我不管以后怎样我们都要保持联络,因为你欠我一只狗...'
我想跟你保持联络的但我没用,不擅长讲话的我...
不是不擅长是对女孩的时候不敢说话,所以常常没有话题....
我好失败哦...心里又开始伤心了...
我只想跟她的关系好一点罢了...
但我没有用...
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GAME OVER....

希望你会跟我分享你的烦恼...
我只想陪陪你渡过你伤心和烦的时候...

林俊傑 - 我還想她
作詞：邢增華 / 作曲：林俊傑

淚水 將我淹沒 到底誰該難過
究竟 是誰放掉 這段感情
我才終于明白 辦不到的承諾 就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴她 我不愛她
笑著難過 自我懲罰
想終止這一切掙扎 橫了心 說真心謊話

別告訴她 我還想她
恨总比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口 就讓沉默 代替所有回答

我不愛 我不痛 我不懂
我的心 早已掏空
真心話 言不由衷

別告訴她 我還想她 就讓沉默 代替所有回答

My Birthday....

wow wow wow...march 9...is public holiday leh!!!
coz is my birthday ma so pihak kerajaan give public holiday lo....
min yi my birthday also is public holiday le no need chuan me....

is a normal morning...i went to play basketball....
the air is so cold...i just sit there for 5 mins then my sweat has dried up....
i long time din play basketball wif my maluri gang le...i become worse and worse le...
so sad...then i try to get back my skill and stamina but like got a gap...
then let ppl scold me noob and cha...grrrrr...
just 1 month din play then become worse le....i need improve!!!

afternoon....after finish eat wif my fren then i walk back home...
guess wat...i sien dao go open pokemon sapphire and play....
i play le whole afternoon....then go forum see about pokemon de thing....
then let shey ni scold me dau kei....but i continue to play coz nth to do....
my parents ask me wat i doing...i say improving english....so funny....

the main scene...THE NIGHT...i go out eat wif her & a ben dan(time for revenge)....haha....
the was late then i went into care4...i go toilet and sit outside the toilet and at there play my hp game...after 5 mins...she phone me and said tat she has arrive...then i finish my game first only go there...i went into the pet shop and take a look....is her favourite pet..DOG...
when i arrived there...she is waiting there and chatting...i still like last time...i has no topic to talk wif her then i try to find topic but i still nervous....finally we get a place and eat...she went to take food then the ben dan call me to help her then she maybe will gan dong...so i went to help her....i am so noob leh...when start eat we need pour the oil...i accidentally make oil fell down...then she say me BEN DAN...so hurt(haha)....then we play game...i eat le so much wasabi....in between ben dan ask me if i kau dao her but no topic chat wif her i will how...she say girl wont like a boy no topic wif the girl...but i always no topic de....i expect she will give me a special de present de but is a pen and a card wrote 'FRENS FOREVER'...i duno wan happy or sad...but i decided not to give up coz i love her...i need gambate...!!!

爱是无私的....我爱你...

Sunday...

walau eh....u go see b4 ketua need go skul on sunday just for a track!!!
no such thing happen b4...
7.30 wake up then 8.00am arrive skul....
look at the skul wat so quiet...
look at the track i wan so stressful...
tml is saringan and i need finish the track today...

it was so hot today...we spray the point and draw it for 1 hour...
then all ppl feel bored and started play...
we run 200m and long jump....
then suddenly go kick football....
it was so tiring...

at the end...get back to work...
all ppl also feel sien le then simply draw and finish it all....
we end at 12 something...after tat...we sit in front the taman of scout and start keng gai....
they wanna build a pondok middle of the taman...and say wan plant some special thing the taman if not will too common....we need special!!
but at there fei hua le about 1 an hour...
then i say i am hungry...no ppl wan bother me....then when i go toilet...
they all take bag and run away...kanasai...
but they dun have the key...haha....

i dun wanna be pengerusi...duno y...it was so tiring and stress...
many ppl say till like i rebut his pangkat...but is teacher decision....
i was happy to be naib pengerusi...can do wat i wish....dun wan come out also can...
wan when ponteng then when ponteng...but now i cant ponteng if not other ppl folo...
i kena...so sad....being a leader was not good at all...at first i just wanna finish the basketball competition then i go back to class...but my plan spoiled....
haiz...i need busy for sukan again...y like tat treat me leh...
i just wanna be relax when form 5....
i like my post in scout...i was so enjoy...
i duno wanna how to handle the sports day....
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

i just wanna to relax....many thing was tiring me....
can i dun be pengerusi??