Marching....

this year is the last year i participate marching competition....
i hope to win when the first day of training and i hope can get best commander coz i am the commander....

but at last i lose....i feel sad...i duno how to show my emotion....
i dun hope to lose...my junior did wrong when competition and i cant blame them...
all of them first time join marching competition....
i just can blame myself...haiz....

who can help me...i really dun hope to lose...MARCHING is the most pro skill i learnt in scout....
but i lose in competition...i cant join it anymore...all wat i did is over....i just can quit marching quietly and just see only...no more competition for me le....tats all....

GOODBYE MARCHING...
i miss u so much....
thx wat u gave me b4...we won on form 1....is over now....
bye....

Working....

today and yesterday i went for my work...
i learn many thing from my work...
i started like my work...wif those brainless guy...
i feel happy wif them more than my fren now...
cant get wat they thinking...i feel more relax when working...
play wif them,curi tulang wif them....

guess wat i get from my work...
i went for a dinner for wedding...i get RM50 ang pau...
walau eh...first time get so much...but me alone only...
coz the ppl order 60ppl food...so 1 waiter only....
but come about 200 ppl...walau eh....
they cook theirself...but me need work double work....
setting those table i do alone....i set up about 15 tables....
i need carry 100 chairs....!!!!
wat lai de....but lucky got RM50 ang pau...if not i will hate them....
order 60 ppl but 200 ppl coming....
i feel nice....of the $$$....start feel money is hard to earn....
this is my weekend....

遇見妳

感情故事的安排 妳迎面走過來 笑臉可愛
於是我來回徘徊 穿越街道人海 為妳等待

腦海不停重演 妳跟我又再遇見
這巧合我用心可以排練 幸福會兌現

守在妳走過的路線 等妳出現
街道的風景 妳的臉 掠過身邊
美麗的劇情在上演 我們之間
一瞬間 感動在蔓延 這一刻我們又遇見 OH BABY

終於出現在人海 我心動的女孩 命運安排
這是最美的意外 相遇某個路牌 對妳表白

腦海不停重演 妳跟我又再遇見
這巧合我用心可以排練 幸福會兌現 YEAH BABY

守在妳走過的路線 等妳出現
街道的風景 妳的臉 掠過身邊
美麗的劇情在上演 我們之間
一瞬間 感動在蔓延 這一刻我們又遇見

有些片段會走遠 深刻的畫面不會變

守在妳走過的路線 等妳出現
街道的風景 妳的臉 掠過身邊
美麗的劇情在上演 我們之間
一瞬間 感動在蔓延 這一刻我們又遇見

废材...

我开始不敢面对她了...
我是不是很没有用...我竟然会放弃与她见面的机会....
现在我应该是跟她一起补习的...但我竟然选择不要去...还骗妈妈没有补习....
我是不是一个白痴...
我付出些什么给了她? 答案是没有任何东西....
我只是会自己在那儿伤心但她却不会理睬我...
当我透明吧...我一向来都只是自己在那儿想她是不是喜欢上我了....
我真的想太多了....她从来都没有喜欢过我...
我还以为她有来看我的部落格...
原来又是我自己想太多....
这几天,我每天早上起来打球过后就去吃东西....
回到家,玩一下电脑就去睡觉....
睡到下午又跑去打球....我打球退步了很多....
昨天还打到差点跟人打架...我打的越来越粗....
朋友都问我为什么我没有出声....
SCOUT的事情我再也不想再理了....
就让其他人做吧...我很累了....
我满脑子还依然想着她....虽然她已跟我说的很清楚...
但我还是无法放下...我不知道要如何放下她....
我希望再说一次我爱你....我应该永远都忘不她吧...
每当我在写有关于她的东西时,我的眼泪都会慢慢的流下....
我真的好爱你....

Holidays....

finally i start working le...
today is my first day of working...
i learn many thing in this working...
this world really is so much thing to learn...
luckily the ppl wif work wif me is so friendly and teach me how to do...
i need to thx them so much for teaching me...

[21 Noverber 2008]
this night i finally tell her wat i think...
but she say i not her type...act i edi knew the answer but i still wan to ask...
duno y i edi knew the answer but when she reject me i still will sad till cry...
she hope we can be fren...but i think i too love her so i wanted her to be my gf...
but finally the result is the same...
she rejected me and tell me to find another better girl...
i cried for her again...i love u so much...
i cant stop like u....i tried b4 but i cant!!
i try to find a new girl but i will use them be ur pengganti only...
my heart edi stolen by u...can u return back to me?
but i think u also duno where u throw...
i izzit too stubborn?
i duno the answer...i just want to have futher relation wif her...
i try to calm down myself...but i cant...
this few days i cant do thing well...
i duno how to lead my juniors for competition...
saturday morning i can say in a bad mood...i ignore any ppl who talk wif me...
i just like a dead body...i late for scout meeting...i din plan activity...
i just did nth....
today is the first day of my working....
i think i can forget u a while by making myself busy...
but a dog appear in front of me....its make me think about ur favourite pet...DOG...
i cant stop missing u...
i think i love u too much...
if u gt saw this blog...can we be back fren?
sorry for anything i did....SORRY....
remember u say wan to go eat wif me?
u say u confirm edi then find me...i will wait for ur sms...

I LOVE U SO MUCH...

说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦

妳的回話凌亂著 在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿　
甜蜜散落了情緒莫名的拉扯　
我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌　假裝沒事了
時間過了 走了　愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了　倦了　我哭了
離開時的不快樂　
妳用卡片手寫著有些愛只給到這真的痛了
怎麼了　妳累了　說好的　幸福呢
我懂得　不說了　愛淡了　
夢遠了開心與不開心　
一一細數著妳再不捨那些愛過的感覺都太深刻　
我都還記得
妳不等了 說好的　幸福呢
我錯了　淚乾了　放手了　後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

Chung Ling Campfire

haiz...talk about this i feel sad....
many ajk dun wan go or cant go this camp....
but this is their last year for the camp...
i duno y they dun wan go....i feel so dissappointed to them....
y must all ppl like this....
they say cant go coz got other thing to do....
they got try their best to go the camp or not?
our GL yung chuen did so much planning for the campfire but those ajk dun wan go....
first time he did so much thing...i also happy to see him do so many thing for the camp more than wif his girl....is the first time and the last time i think....
SORRY to him i cant do anything just can use all knowledge in marching to train ahli only...
other than tat i cant do anything....
but y cant all ajk give some cooperate to him...
just a little...just attend the camp...
why cannot!!!
izzit all ppl is so selfish...y cant just put just a little heart on scout!!!
wat i can hope is just fate...
but at the last i hope they attend...

JUST GIVE ME AND HIM A HAND...
FOR THE LAST YEAR ONLY...
ONCE A SCOUT, ALWAYS A SCOUT...
PLS...

Jamboree....

Jamboree means World Scout Camp...
this year de Jamboree held at Johor,Batu Pahat....
i feel this camp sienz but i learn something abt scout in the camp...
those activity is easy just we need time to complete it....
i use 1 and a half day to finish whole activity and i got 1 day free to stay at camp site...
this camp i din go knew new fren coz i not in a good mood...
although there are many leng lui there but i din take their msn or wat....
but i knew some new boys fren there,they have some same topic wif me so we able to be good fren there....

Unluckily i been chosen as PL again,my FATE...
i always been chosen as PL duno why...
when i dun wan i will get it, when i wan i wont get it but i didn't wan b4....
but the main problem is 90% are malays...hard to communicate...
some malays are frenly but some anti Cina...so i...haiz....
whatever...but whole AJK who lead us also is MALAYS....
they din bother wat we do luckily coz we are chinese...
if me organise a camp i think i also wont bother those malays let they do their things....

we stay in a campsite like jungle...we need to clean up those leaves on the floor so we can make camp there...when we clean up...there are many INSECTS there...
got flying cockcroach,many kinds of ants,spider and 蜈蚣(i duno in eng)...
every morning when i walk out from my camp i need beware of the floor got any insect...
their foods there quite ok but every meal also gt curry chicken...
TOILET...this is horrible...u can see those SHIT higher than the 马桶...
wow...when i need go to toilet i need increase my bravery to go in....
u cant imagine wat happen there....
me and my fren did some stupid thing there is so funny so i wont boring there but kontigen KL is so strict...even u need to go toilet also need ask them b4...they may gather we all at anytime anywhere like digi...haha...
the activity i like the most in the jamboree is PAINT BALL...
but i went in the field shoot abt 3 shot then i kena ppl's bullet and game over...
but i like it very much...

i learnt some skill there...i also know some 人生道理 there...
they tell us to think things 2 way...
i give an example...
like u saw a ppl using a stick hitting the dog...
i think most of the ppl sure will think the ppl is cruel...
but if the ppl is defending the dog of bitting him or the dog gt any diseases...
u may dunno...so wat thing decide b4 u need to know the real information first....
and some other things la but i duno how to explain here....

this camp got good and bad things...
but i also knew 1 new thing is i need to apprieciate the thing i have now...
is my BED and AIR-CONd....

i am lost...

now i feel i am in a lowest point of my life....
i feel it i am very useless,unsucessful and i gt no point to live...
my holiday i duno wan how to pass...



STUDY:
my study sucks....bio and sejarah i duno at all throughout the whole year,
i duno i wanna how to take this 2 subject in SPM...
just math and add math i get a better result but other subjects i become worse and worst...
i think is my laziness...i gt interest in few subject but when i feel i cant get wat the teacher teaching i started lost my interest on it...i know if i continue like this i will totally fail my SPM...



LOVE:
this thing i feel i am very useless on it...i cant even dare face the problem...
i envy her going out wif some1 but if let her know she will say me y so fan...
i think i cant live without her but i think she wont like me at all...love is wat....
i cant find this answer out...i always sad of her and i hope she find me to tell wat is her suffering but she wont do tat...coz i not her cup of tea...maybe i think too much...but i always love her...



SCOUT:
almost 1 year edi i become AJK,but i think i din teach anything to my junior...80% activity i think i will give them fizikal and marching only...the troop i leading is Form 2 but they all has wasted 1 year in form 1 but this year they also learn nth...next year they PMR and they will be given holiday and after holiday and they will become AJK...i wasted their time by teaching nth to them...SORRY USAHA...
another failure of me is the gathering i organise...i din plan thing well and the gathering were given comment with SIENZ...i had work hard for the gathering but the result is not wat i expected...i am a failure....



BASKETBALL:
i think i had improve but i din improve at all...in class i think my skill is good enough but when i go out playing wif other ppl,my skill is damn NOOB in front of them...they can steal my ball easily and i cant even know how to shoot...i prefer to be a rebounder but i cant take any rebound by playing wif them...i think i am good enuf but i wasn't...maybe i just have to play in skul only and cannot play outside....i am a NOOB...


all above is my FAILURE,
i duno i need how to make it better and my life now is kosong...
YAP YONG LIM YOU IS A FAILURE!!!

妈妈的礼物

10月31日是我妈妈的生日...
当天早上当着没有一回事,假装不知道....
到了晚上她出去了,我才出去买礼物...
我决定买一架新的手提电话给她....
但所有店都关了.....
所以没有买到,就打算去买蛋糕...
但死MALURI竟然没有蛋糕店....
就到处找人载我去买但他们都不愿意....

今天早上要去学校清理QM,
一大早就去了,我就叫朋友帮我买电话...
一直清理到下午才结束...结束了就去吃东西...
然后去朋友家玩下电脑...
接着就去篮球场打球...
到了晚上朋友才拿电话给我,
16年了第一次靠自己买礼物,
感觉自己好像长大了...
哈哈哈....
妈妈看到我送给她的礼物虽然没有给什么反应但我发觉她是开心的...
叶勇霖送的礼物哦...开玩笑啊....
这是我第一次为妈妈做这么多东西....

妈妈生日快乐....

一切都是为了你....

突然间有一种感觉想要开部落格,
我也不知道为什么会开...
可能 原因是因为你,
爱你已经成为了我的习惯,
我的生活如果没有了你,
我也不知道我活在这世界上还会有什么意义!!
我知道你会觉得我很傻或者很烦但我就是控制不了我自己....
有时你让我觉得你好像对我有好感,
但这可能是我想太多了,
我总希望有一天你会成为我的女朋友但不知道是几时...
古语说:日有所思,夜有所梦...这句话可能发生在我身上了,
我时常梦到我跟你一起出街还有手牵手一起走街,
我可能傻了吧...
我一直以为为你付出一切就可以感动你,
但你好像无动于衷,有时你还会觉得我很烦吧...
你的朋友都说我跟你是没有可能的,
巴仙率几乎是零这句话深深烙印在我脑中,
但我却从来不放弃,
因为我发誓除了你,
没有人可以代替你在我心目中的地位,
我的生活一切都以你来当出发点,
努力赚钱为了买跟你一样的手提电话,
你喜欢的歌我马上会去下载来听,
而且还会不停的听....
在凯棋家,我懂那份礼物是你买的,
我虽然不知道为什么你不要给我懂,
但我的直觉告诉我那就是你买的礼物...
打开了是一只狗我更确定是你带来的...
我不知道为什么我在你面前总是说不出话来,
但我试着跟你讲话,每次要跟你讲话时,
我都会事先想好要跟你讲什么才去找你...
自己想起都觉得好笑,
每天下课,
我都会去看你在哪里,
虽然只是看到你的背影但我都会觉得足够了,
有时知道你伤心时,
我会试着想去安慰你,
但你回复我,har...nth la...i'm ok...
可能是因为某些事你再也不信任我,
但每次跟你出去我都会觉得很高兴,
虽然每次只是跟在你后面但我都觉得足够了...
做人要知足嘛...
别人都说我满脑子都是你,
我重也没有否认过...
在学业上,你不断的努力,
让我觉得很自卑,你的愿望是成为一名医生...
这是我从来也没想过要当的职业...
有时想念你时,我会故意留在学校,
希望可以碰见你,但如果遇不到你,
我会故意经过你家门口希望能看到你,
但一次也没看到你....
我觉得没有事情可以改变我的情绪除了你,
每次伤心都是因为你,
我很羡慕YYC可以那么幸福,
他总是说这是忠心和不忠心的差别...

我的生命真的不可缺少你...
没有人可以代替你....
我爱你....